Things yet unseen
When I came back from San Diego, I knew there would be some stuff that would still be unresolved, either problems or things to begin. As of now though, I'm still feeling largely in the same situation as when I came back, with some slight changes.
My spiritual walk is currently still not in a very strong state yet. Hmm yes hopefully "yet" haha. Been quite occupied mentally and emotionally, and it's not just studies... I feel like I've been over-relying on games to take my mind off some of these things, which ends up eating a good amount of my time. Worse still, when I'm at home, playing games = free, which means everyone starts asking me to do stuff when I'm playing or when I just finish. My goodness, the game was meant to be a way to relax, not a sign that I'm available to be stressed out...
Church wise, I've been visiting a friend's church recently (something different from when I first came back haha). It's quite ok so far and I'm mixing quite well, but I realised key things like community and spiritual support are things I won't find so quickly. I've also some other churches in mind to visit, but as of now I'm not sure when I'll visit them.
More personally, I've still been trying to change my self-perception. Unfortunately, this persistent problem which I thought I left behind in San Diego has followed me back... I suppose only spiritual growth can solve some things.
And schoolwork is starting to flow in! To top off everything... Thank goodness schoolwork is currently still the least of my problems, although it's probably not gonna stay that way for much longer.
There seems to be so much to come but which I've no idea how to handle. I guess the first step is my spiritual walk. I met a friend yesterday during VCF Fellowship Teaching, and I was surprised when she asked me how things in church were. It's nice to know that people still remember the things I'm going through. One of the most encouraging things that I've been trying to keep in mind, is a promise that I've a friend back in US who's keeping me in prayer (but whom I've not been returning the favour...).
There's so many things that are still unseen, there are wishes and dreams that I'm still longing for (and actually I should still be hoping for). It's quite a strange feeling to long for things yet not feel very hopeful for them... oh well... But hope is another key thing I need to hold on to now.
Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my hopes, all of my plans
My heart and my hands are lifted to You
My spiritual walk is currently still not in a very strong state yet. Hmm yes hopefully "yet" haha. Been quite occupied mentally and emotionally, and it's not just studies... I feel like I've been over-relying on games to take my mind off some of these things, which ends up eating a good amount of my time. Worse still, when I'm at home, playing games = free, which means everyone starts asking me to do stuff when I'm playing or when I just finish. My goodness, the game was meant to be a way to relax, not a sign that I'm available to be stressed out...
Church wise, I've been visiting a friend's church recently (something different from when I first came back haha). It's quite ok so far and I'm mixing quite well, but I realised key things like community and spiritual support are things I won't find so quickly. I've also some other churches in mind to visit, but as of now I'm not sure when I'll visit them.
More personally, I've still been trying to change my self-perception. Unfortunately, this persistent problem which I thought I left behind in San Diego has followed me back... I suppose only spiritual growth can solve some things.
And schoolwork is starting to flow in! To top off everything... Thank goodness schoolwork is currently still the least of my problems, although it's probably not gonna stay that way for much longer.
There seems to be so much to come but which I've no idea how to handle. I guess the first step is my spiritual walk. I met a friend yesterday during VCF Fellowship Teaching, and I was surprised when she asked me how things in church were. It's nice to know that people still remember the things I'm going through. One of the most encouraging things that I've been trying to keep in mind, is a promise that I've a friend back in US who's keeping me in prayer (but whom I've not been returning the favour...).
There's so many things that are still unseen, there are wishes and dreams that I'm still longing for (and actually I should still be hoping for). It's quite a strange feeling to long for things yet not feel very hopeful for them... oh well... But hope is another key thing I need to hold on to now.
Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my hopes, all of my plans
My heart and my hands are lifted to You
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