Final goodbyes... :'(

I've realised long ago that I will definitely miss a lot of people from San Diego, but even so, going through the goodbyes, especially having to say goodbye to a lot of people that I've grown close to, is still really really sad...

One thing that I've learned about myself is that I'm an emotional person, and I usually depend more on my feelings than on my thoughts. To me, relationships are VERY important, and having deep relationships with people is something that's VERY meaningful to me. Incredibly, I've formed several deep relationships here in San Diego, and I've found friends whom I can share good times with and also whom I can talk to and pray with. Knowing that I'll have to say goodbye to these new friends was hard enough, but saying goodbye is even harder... I feel that recently I've been quite down emotionally, having to say goodbye to so many friends...

I still wonder how long these feelings will stay with me. Saying goodbye to friends back in Singapore is one thing, knowing that we could always meet again in future. But saying goodbye to friends here is a completely different thing, as I never know when I'll ever see them again. It's especially difficult because I've found a community here that was closer than anything I had back home, and it's really hard to say goodbye to the people I've found in this community. It's the 1st time in my life that I had (and have) to say goodbye within such a short span of time to so many people that I had grown quite close to. There are many recent nights when I sometimes don't really feel like sleeping...

I guess the greatest comfort for me is the close friends I have back home. As for community, maybe in time God will show me a community that I can be REALLY close to and that I can belong to. Of course, I will still miss the people I've known here, and I hope that I can see them again in future.

"If you come to Korea, let me know ok?"
"Keep in touch and do let me know when you come to Singapore!"