An unexpected flow of emotions
Yesterday, my church held a 100% Praise and Worship event. It was great, but the emotional experience I went through was something I completely didn't expect.
The helpers for the event (which included me as I was a befriender) met in church at 5. After a time of prayer, we split up to have our dinner. The band, however, got some takeaway food as time was rather short for them.
Shortly after we split up, I found myself alone again. Ok, so it was going to be a solo dinner. Fine. I walked and saw where some of the others were but didn't join any of them. That wasted more time that I realised though. Eventually, I walked over to the market opposite and bought a plate of chicken rice. Most of the time, the chicken would be boneless, but this time it wasn't. I felt rather irritated, and the irritation made eating alone feel quite terrible. I ate for a while, then suddenly I realised that I was short of time, so I hurriedly ate the rest and went back to church.
I had volunteered to help as a befriender, but to my unexpected shock, I realised that the irritation earlier had completely put me off the mindset of a befriender. In fact, I came back to church then only I remembered that I'm supposed to be a befriender! Realising I was feeling too emotionally disturbed, I sneaked up to a room all the way upstairs. I sat down in the room and prayed to calm myself down. It worked to some extent, so I went back down to help out, but after a while I realised I still wasn't feeling well, so I decided to just go into the Sanctuary and wait for the worship to start instead of helping out.
The 100% Praise and Worship this time was different from the rest as it adjusted to accommodate non-Christians. There were testimonies and a lot of explanations of many Christian things. As I was listening to the first testimony and how the girl sharing had suffered in her life before coming to know Christ, the difficult times of my own life came back to mind. The pain, the rejection, the loneliness, the suffering; all these came back to memory. After that, we sang the song "There Is None Like You". As I thought back to my past and also what had just happened, I felt deeply moved by the song. Not long after that, we sang the song "Your Grace Is Enough". The timing of this song touched me like it never did before.
Listening to and singing these 2 songs within such a short span of time, I felt God ministering to me. He made me realise again that through all I had to go through, indeed there is none like Him who will always be there for me in times of difficulties and trials. Indeed, His grace is enough, His grace is sufficient to help me tide through difficult times. I came out from this worship event feeling a renewed comfort and strength in my heart.
The helpers for the event (which included me as I was a befriender) met in church at 5. After a time of prayer, we split up to have our dinner. The band, however, got some takeaway food as time was rather short for them.
Shortly after we split up, I found myself alone again. Ok, so it was going to be a solo dinner. Fine. I walked and saw where some of the others were but didn't join any of them. That wasted more time that I realised though. Eventually, I walked over to the market opposite and bought a plate of chicken rice. Most of the time, the chicken would be boneless, but this time it wasn't. I felt rather irritated, and the irritation made eating alone feel quite terrible. I ate for a while, then suddenly I realised that I was short of time, so I hurriedly ate the rest and went back to church.
I had volunteered to help as a befriender, but to my unexpected shock, I realised that the irritation earlier had completely put me off the mindset of a befriender. In fact, I came back to church then only I remembered that I'm supposed to be a befriender! Realising I was feeling too emotionally disturbed, I sneaked up to a room all the way upstairs. I sat down in the room and prayed to calm myself down. It worked to some extent, so I went back down to help out, but after a while I realised I still wasn't feeling well, so I decided to just go into the Sanctuary and wait for the worship to start instead of helping out.
The 100% Praise and Worship this time was different from the rest as it adjusted to accommodate non-Christians. There were testimonies and a lot of explanations of many Christian things. As I was listening to the first testimony and how the girl sharing had suffered in her life before coming to know Christ, the difficult times of my own life came back to mind. The pain, the rejection, the loneliness, the suffering; all these came back to memory. After that, we sang the song "There Is None Like You". As I thought back to my past and also what had just happened, I felt deeply moved by the song. Not long after that, we sang the song "Your Grace Is Enough". The timing of this song touched me like it never did before.
Listening to and singing these 2 songs within such a short span of time, I felt God ministering to me. He made me realise again that through all I had to go through, indeed there is none like Him who will always be there for me in times of difficulties and trials. Indeed, His grace is enough, His grace is sufficient to help me tide through difficult times. I came out from this worship event feeling a renewed comfort and strength in my heart.
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10:12 pm
