A special magical moment Forever remembered
Here I am now, happily baptised and doing God's work of reaching out to other people. My walk with God now, and my current situation, much of this was all due to what happened last year. Exactly one year ago, on this very night, I encountered a special moment that would change my life and my spiritual walk forever.
Just before Church Camp 2005, having gone through some deeply reflective and touching moments in the past several days, I asked God to use this Church Camp (which was actually my first one) to change my life forever. I went for the Church Camp, not even knowing what to expect, but just hoping that God would answer my sincere wish.
The focus of the camp was on prayer, so on Wed night, 15 June 2005 (exactly one year ago), we gathered in the ballroom where we had most of our activities and we had a Night of Prayer, where we came to be still and silent before God and listen to Him. As I knelt on the floor, the lyrics of the chorus of the song "Forever" came to mind, and immediately I remembered the experience I had during the 100% Praise and Worship. Deep down, I wished that God would tell me that He loved me. However, throughout the time of silence, I felt nothing. When the time of silence ended, a few of our church people came up to share what God had told them. Those who came up all spoke about evangelising to the community around us, and I began to feel that my wish would not be granted. Then our speaker came up, and the words he spoke to us that night were words that I would forever remember: "You are precious to Me. I love you."
I was deeply moved by his words and nearly broke down there and then, but I fought back the tears until we dispersed from the ballroom. I looked for someone to talk to but found no one (probably was a good thing actually), so I went by myself to sit on a rock beside a nearby lagoon. There, as everything came back to mind, I broke down, deeply grateful and deeply touched by the answered wishes. I thought back to all the recent events that I had gone through: May Prayer Meeting, 100% Praise and Worship, Bible Trail night sessions, and the Night of Prayer. God had touched my heart in a special way through each and every one of these events, ending it off with that night by speaking to me in a special way. Why would the speaker speak to us about God loving us when everyone before him ALL spoke about evangelism? I knew God had worked in him to touch my life that very night.
Nowadays, I still feel very moved when I think back to that night. That night was God's special way of giving me comfort after all the pain, loneliness and suffering I had gone through before then. That night will also serve as a reminder of humility, that this faith I now have, it is by God's grace that I have it, it is by His grace that He touched my life in such a special way, and I did nothing but just followed Him as He took me through this process of refining and renewing my faith. Many others also had to face similar problems, but God chose me, to touch my life in this special way and keep me in church. Why me? I would never know. All I know is that God deserves more than I could ever give. All I can say is this: If God doesn't exist, I wouldn't be in church right now.
I'll worship You my God
I'll worship You my God
I love You, I love You
Forever I will sing
Forever I will be with You, be with You
Just before Church Camp 2005, having gone through some deeply reflective and touching moments in the past several days, I asked God to use this Church Camp (which was actually my first one) to change my life forever. I went for the Church Camp, not even knowing what to expect, but just hoping that God would answer my sincere wish.
The focus of the camp was on prayer, so on Wed night, 15 June 2005 (exactly one year ago), we gathered in the ballroom where we had most of our activities and we had a Night of Prayer, where we came to be still and silent before God and listen to Him. As I knelt on the floor, the lyrics of the chorus of the song "Forever" came to mind, and immediately I remembered the experience I had during the 100% Praise and Worship. Deep down, I wished that God would tell me that He loved me. However, throughout the time of silence, I felt nothing. When the time of silence ended, a few of our church people came up to share what God had told them. Those who came up all spoke about evangelising to the community around us, and I began to feel that my wish would not be granted. Then our speaker came up, and the words he spoke to us that night were words that I would forever remember: "You are precious to Me. I love you."
I was deeply moved by his words and nearly broke down there and then, but I fought back the tears until we dispersed from the ballroom. I looked for someone to talk to but found no one (probably was a good thing actually), so I went by myself to sit on a rock beside a nearby lagoon. There, as everything came back to mind, I broke down, deeply grateful and deeply touched by the answered wishes. I thought back to all the recent events that I had gone through: May Prayer Meeting, 100% Praise and Worship, Bible Trail night sessions, and the Night of Prayer. God had touched my heart in a special way through each and every one of these events, ending it off with that night by speaking to me in a special way. Why would the speaker speak to us about God loving us when everyone before him ALL spoke about evangelism? I knew God had worked in him to touch my life that very night.
Nowadays, I still feel very moved when I think back to that night. That night was God's special way of giving me comfort after all the pain, loneliness and suffering I had gone through before then. That night will also serve as a reminder of humility, that this faith I now have, it is by God's grace that I have it, it is by His grace that He touched my life in such a special way, and I did nothing but just followed Him as He took me through this process of refining and renewing my faith. Many others also had to face similar problems, but God chose me, to touch my life in this special way and keep me in church. Why me? I would never know. All I know is that God deserves more than I could ever give. All I can say is this: If God doesn't exist, I wouldn't be in church right now.
I'll worship You my God
I'll worship You my God
I love You, I love You
Forever I will sing
Forever I will be with You, be with You
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