Looking at ourselves...through whose eyes?

Sometimes, the one person we dislike most in our lives is ourselves. We feel that we don't look good enough, we're not intelligent enough, we're not popular enough... We never seem to meet up to our own expectations, do we?

For someone who has felt rejected by people for years, I've come to realise that the years of rejection have had a larger impact on me than I realised. After I became a Christian, it seemed like the pain and suffering of the past was over. Or so I thought. Besides the loneliness that took a lot of difficulty to overcome, one other thing that has lasted is a rather low self-esteem.

As a Christian, one thing I've learned is that we should base our esteem on what God thinks of us and not what man (including our own selves) think of us. Yet, we often judge ourselves so easily and feel so bad about ourselves that sometimes we even wish we were someone else. I admit I won't be surprised if I'm more judgemental of myself than my friends are of me.

It's a struggle I've yet to win, but slowly, as I continue to grow spiritually, I know I can accomplish this.