The power of one
Loneliness is often one of the most difficult things we can ever face in life. For me, I went through some years where I felt so lonely that ALL I wanted was just friends. The pain was horrible and I even was on the verge of suicide.
After I came to church, I wanted a group of friends whom I could be really close to. Although I grew close to my church friends, I never found a group that I could be really close to. As I struggled through my friendship problems to the point of nearing leaving church, God showed me something completely new and unexpected. While almost everyone else in church has their own group that they "belong" to (mostly through being in the same batch), I'm in a different situation, to fulfill a completely different purpose. (Which means, I'm still going to have no group for some time...)
Through being independent of a group and having grown in dependence on God for quite long, I've discovered the hidden strengths of being alone. Being alone, there are incredible things I'm achieving that I would never have achieved if I was too attached to my own group of close friends. Even up to now, the things I can do alone still surprise me at times.
One important thing I've been doing is to mix around with and talk to those who don't have friends whom they are close to in church. Some of these friends are "lost" in church, having left the youth, while others have left church already. They don't look for people to talk to, while others usually stick to their own groups, so if I can talk to them and help them feel comfortable talking to me, why not? Some of them now take the initiative to come and talk to me when they see me around.
I've also been mixing around with various groups in church, going out with some, playing LAN with some others, playing sports with others. Over time, I've come to realise that by not sticking to any group, I've unknowingly formed a HUGE social circle around me. Wow. Considering how long I've been in church, I have mixed with a REALLY wide variety of people.
I've gone through a lot to get to where I am now. It's hasn't been easy, but God has been there for me, and through all these, He's moulding me. God has made me to be alone, so that others would not be alone. By being ready to stand alone and letting Him work through me, I have achieved so many amazing things that no one else could, and I know, there's still so much more in store for me, so much more I've yet to achieve.
After I came to church, I wanted a group of friends whom I could be really close to. Although I grew close to my church friends, I never found a group that I could be really close to. As I struggled through my friendship problems to the point of nearing leaving church, God showed me something completely new and unexpected. While almost everyone else in church has their own group that they "belong" to (mostly through being in the same batch), I'm in a different situation, to fulfill a completely different purpose. (Which means, I'm still going to have no group for some time...)
Through being independent of a group and having grown in dependence on God for quite long, I've discovered the hidden strengths of being alone. Being alone, there are incredible things I'm achieving that I would never have achieved if I was too attached to my own group of close friends. Even up to now, the things I can do alone still surprise me at times.
One important thing I've been doing is to mix around with and talk to those who don't have friends whom they are close to in church. Some of these friends are "lost" in church, having left the youth, while others have left church already. They don't look for people to talk to, while others usually stick to their own groups, so if I can talk to them and help them feel comfortable talking to me, why not? Some of them now take the initiative to come and talk to me when they see me around.
I've also been mixing around with various groups in church, going out with some, playing LAN with some others, playing sports with others. Over time, I've come to realise that by not sticking to any group, I've unknowingly formed a HUGE social circle around me. Wow. Considering how long I've been in church, I have mixed with a REALLY wide variety of people.
I've gone through a lot to get to where I am now. It's hasn't been easy, but God has been there for me, and through all these, He's moulding me. God has made me to be alone, so that others would not be alone. By being ready to stand alone and letting Him work through me, I have achieved so many amazing things that no one else could, and I know, there's still so much more in store for me, so much more I've yet to achieve.
posted by Guangrong at
10:54 pm
