A new phase, a new stage, everything removed. No spiritual support, no stressors either.
Wow it's been a long time since I last blogged... wonder who will realise I just added another post.
I just saw a friend off yesterday morning. She's going Canada on an exchange programme, to study in McGill University, and will be back next semester. This friend is a friend whom I'm quite close and is one of the closest spiritual friends I've ever found. Seeing this friend off was like God saying "Ok, I'm going to take away your strongest spiritual support for now."
But it's not just her. In a few days' times, I will also be going for exchange to University of California, San Diego. I'll be going for 2 quarters and will be coming back in the middle of next year. Time passes so fast and I'll be leaving soon.
Some weeks earlier, one of my friends was expressing concern over my spiritual walk while I'm in San Diego. I emailed a senior, and she told me that she found her exchange programme to be more of a spiritual retreat than a spiritual testing. I think it'll probably be the same for me too. As I go on this trip, my spiritual support is pretty much gone, and I'll be alone in a brand new environment. Seeing my friend off was more than enough of a reminder... At the same time, the stressors that have been bugging me would also be gone. The pressures from home, the pressures from church... Due to some problems in my church, I've recently been considering changing church, but haven't visited any other churches yet. I'm still wondering what will happen when I come back. Will I stay in my current church or will I visit other churches? How different will things be? Hmm...
Going over to San Diego will be a step into a new environment. I'm sure there's alot of excitement and fun that awaits me, but I've also received safety warnings to be careful and take care of myself. What will happen there and what will happen when I get back is anybody's guess. Hopefully, I will return spiritually strong enough to be ready for a relationship, one that can truly be honourable to God. But only time will tell.
I just saw a friend off yesterday morning. She's going Canada on an exchange programme, to study in McGill University, and will be back next semester. This friend is a friend whom I'm quite close and is one of the closest spiritual friends I've ever found. Seeing this friend off was like God saying "Ok, I'm going to take away your strongest spiritual support for now."
But it's not just her. In a few days' times, I will also be going for exchange to University of California, San Diego. I'll be going for 2 quarters and will be coming back in the middle of next year. Time passes so fast and I'll be leaving soon.
Some weeks earlier, one of my friends was expressing concern over my spiritual walk while I'm in San Diego. I emailed a senior, and she told me that she found her exchange programme to be more of a spiritual retreat than a spiritual testing. I think it'll probably be the same for me too. As I go on this trip, my spiritual support is pretty much gone, and I'll be alone in a brand new environment. Seeing my friend off was more than enough of a reminder... At the same time, the stressors that have been bugging me would also be gone. The pressures from home, the pressures from church... Due to some problems in my church, I've recently been considering changing church, but haven't visited any other churches yet. I'm still wondering what will happen when I come back. Will I stay in my current church or will I visit other churches? How different will things be? Hmm...
Going over to San Diego will be a step into a new environment. I'm sure there's alot of excitement and fun that awaits me, but I've also received safety warnings to be careful and take care of myself. What will happen there and what will happen when I get back is anybody's guess. Hopefully, I will return spiritually strong enough to be ready for a relationship, one that can truly be honourable to God. But only time will tell.
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